First of all, thank you so much for sharing my cover excitement! I love love love ENDLESSLY's cover, and it makes everything so much more fun when you do, too! But obviously that is not what this post is about. Unless I have begun assigning random, nonsensical titles. (Which I wouldn't put past myself, really.)
The other night I sat on the couch next to my husband, laptop in my lap as usual.
"Is there a pattern?" Hot Stuff asked.
"Is there a pattern? You keep clicking through the same pages. I was just wondering if you go in a specific pattern."
And...yeah. He was right. Click, click, click, click, click, click, start over. It makes no sense. It accomplishes nothing. It used to be that blogging and tweeting and reading and finding things online fed me creatively. They spurred me on, encouraged me, challenged me.
Lately? I'm spinning in circles, clicking clicking clicking without ever changing anything. It's not that the internets have changed (oh, internets, you never do change, do you?); it's that I have. Or maybe that I haven't. Whatever it is, I'm a bit stuck right now. I'm not finding inspiration here, but I just keep looking and looking and looking anyway.
So, I'm declaring this NoNoNetMo. November No Net Month. Aside from checking email a couple of times a day for professional things, I'm going to take a big step back. A huge step back. A scary step back. I used to find so much joy and entertainment in blogging. I hope to get there again. But in the meantime I'm going to look elsewhere. I'm going to watch movies and listen to music and read boatloads of books and do things to feed myself creatively. I'm going to stop doing the things I know are draining me.
I used to think, "If I don't post anything, no one will care!" But I'll admit it's kind of a relief to realize that no one will care if I don't post anything. I won't lose any readers; people won't forget I exist. I'll take my month, you'll get along just fine, and think of how refreshed we'll all be when we meet back up again!
As always, thank you for being here. Thank you for reading my blog, and enjoying my writing, and supporting my career. I'm so incredibly grateful for all of you. And I'm going to take this month to refocus and wallow in gratitude for the freaking amazing life I have.
Until then, all best,